Let’s discuss the meaning of behgopa and the behgopa rage. After all, it’s the driving force behind this blog, hence its name. As you may have figured, behgopa means “hungry” or “I’m hungry” in Korean. I am ALWAYS behgopa. I think it almost defines who I am lol. I love food and love to eat. The first thing on my mind when I wake up (always hungry) is WTF to eat. I contemplate what to eat…sometimes I’ll spend hours trying to decide. Other times, I will have a very specific craving and know exactly what I want.
And you don’t want to be around me when I am behgopa. It’s best to stay out of my way until I have eaten. When I become behgopa, I become a different person….really really grumpy (imagine PMS times 50), irrational, and just plain crazy (almost). After my last meal at home, I will usually start to get hungry around 5-6pm, which is pretty much the start of show time at the restaurant. There have been nights when I just hunger through the entire night. Towards the end of the night, I have become a bitter, grumpy, lightheaded, weakened mess….complete 180 turn from the person that first entered the kitchen earlier in the afternoon.
The hunger is not really something I could deal with. I try to pack my lunch (or in this case, dinner) to work so that I can munch on things during the night. But there are some nights that I just simply don’t have time. On crazy busy nights, I power through service while not even having a second to even go to the restroom, let alone take a bite of my packed dinner. I know I work in a kitchen, so people may think it’s weird to be packing food to go work in a kitchen stocked with food. But most nights, there is little or no time to make something (other than family meals). And I feel weird about making something only for myself when it’s not my turn to make family meal. My days to make family meals are Wednesdays and Fridays. As I have mentioned in other posts, even on days I do make family meals, I don’t always eat it. I just make it so that the rest of the crew doesn’t starve. So yeah, it’s much easier and convenient to just pack my meal to take to work.
Sometimes family meal can be like prison food. EWWWW!! Just look at this shit. Some people think we are always eating filet mignons and caviar, when the stuff that we (the staff) eat is almost never the food we serve. These are some of the things made by the lunch crew (they are kind enough to save some for the dinner crew when we stroll in). Yucky dry insufficiently seasoned chicken and some greens they threw together. I can only guess that it was crazy busy that day and they just threw this together with little to no effort while keeping their focus on a billion of other things going on. It happens to all of us sometimes. It’s like…who cares if it’s good, as long as people don’t starve..That seems to be the mentality of chefs cooking up family meals when it’s mad busy.
Oh God….this is why many restaurant workers probably don’t like pasta much.
It’s eaten way too often. Pasta noodles are purchased in bulk specifically for family (while fresh yummy ones are made for service) and the sight of it just makes me cringe sometimes. BUT……I eat it anyways (SOMETIMES). What can I do when I am going crazy from starvation? Other times, I am just really grossed out by it and I’ll just wait until I get home…..I was kind of hungry yesterday when I went into work, and this is what the lunch crew had served the family. It was gross, but I ate it anyways. I mean, it wasn’t grossly made or anything but just gross to me because I am so sick of pasta. I try to avoid it when I can. But I had to feed myself to avoid the behgopa rage later in the evening….before I start giving people the dirty looks. During some of my behgopa rages, I’ve had coworkers asking me if I was in a bad mood and why I was pissed off. And they eventually learned that it was due to the behgopa rage. When I look like I am starting to get grumpy, they will tell me to go eat something. Lol…they learned.
I often pack Korean food (surprise surprise) lol. A typical packed dinner looks like this. It’s quick, simple, and low in calories (compared to some of the other things anyways, especially the things we consume at work for family meals). This gets me through the night (when I have time). There have been nights I have packed food and did not even have time to touch it. Then it becomes trash since I don’t want to eat it when I bring it home. When I get home, I want to eat something warm and fresh. One of my fav things to eat after coming home from a long hungry night is KIMCHI JJIGAE!!I LOVES..
On my days off, I find myself venturing out and enjoying someone else’s cooking for a change (I Yelp about my dining experiences too). At least half of the time, I end up going to my usual places. I am a creature of habit and find comfort in the familiar things. Pho, Sullungtang, and Soon Tofu are at the top of the list (yeah I love soupy comfort food). Sometimes I make Sullungtang and Soon Tofu at home, but when I don’t feel like cooking, I frequent the local joints that serve those dishes. Pho, I have never tried making yet, but I understand that it’s pretty simple to make..gotta try making it some time.
I used to eat dim sum more when I was living in San Francisco. I haven’t really eaten it too regularly in LA. I think a lot of it has to do with the fact that to eat decent dim sum, I’d have to go out of my way since I don’t know of any places in the 562-714 area. I’d imagine most of these joints are in the SGV area, Chinatown, or Rowland Heights area (so I hear). And those places are a good 20-30 minutes away….not always an option (or a convenience) just to eat dim sum.
Oh God I was dying. The battle to go around in circles and beat the traffic seemed endless as I was slowly dying. As I finally made my final left turn and into the parking lot of the plaza, I started to see the light. The restaurant is located at the Diamond Plaza. I used to come here all the time back in the days, but have never tried out this restaurant.
I enter the establishment to find it pretty empty with only a couple of tables occupied. It was past lunch time for most people, so no surprise there. I ask if I can get a table by the window. I love window seats. But unfortunately, the window seats were reserved for some banquet. So I just get a table wherever. It did not really matter at this time.
I start salivating as soon as I saw the ladies with the carts strolling by. They were lingering at this one table that seemed to take forever to make up their minds on what to get…and there I was just sitting and wanting to go over there and say “hurry the eff up….people dying of starvation over here!” But I patiently waited (you have no idea how hard it is to be patient when you are about to die from starvation..or maybe some of you do).
OMG I wanted to eat everything on the cart, almost without even looking. That’s how starving I was. I almost said, “I don’t care. Just give me everything on the cart!”
The second picture from the top is what I ate first. Sweet heaven!!! That was the most freaking delicious bite ever. I ended up loving that one the most and I am not sure if it’s because it’s something that I’d normally love or because the starvation made it taste like it was the best damn thing in the world.As my tummy started to get fed with the first few bites, I magically turned HAPPY again. That’s the magic of eating!
I ate one of each dumpling first, to taste. And the first one was still the best (credit to being seasoned with the behgopa rage). I’d say the second favorite was the shrimp ball (last pic). I tried the porridge while I was no longer in that behgopa rage. And I did not like it! I don’t even think that that is something I’d normally order. But again, it was me trying to get everything I saw on the cart.
I’d say that the dim sums here were okay. And I’m not sure if I’d be the best to judge, given the starving condition that I was in. Heck, it could’ve been nasty and I was all over it because I was starving. I wouldn’t be surprised if I went there on a normal hungry state and found the dim sums to be nasty. I didn’t love it, but I can say that I liked it that day. It sure did hit the spot and alleviate the behgopa rage.