I am determined to kick the horrible addiction that I have had for over 15 years. I know that if I don’t, I will probably pay for it later, in my old age. I am losing my battle with coffee addiction. The last time I quit, I lasted for three months. And then I somehow fell off the wagon again. Well, I don’t exactly want to quit cold turkey, but minimize my consumption. I think about once or twice a week would be okay. But then again, that is how I got in the shits last time. I allow myself to drink a cup of joe one day, then I will want to drink some more the following day. And I think to myself, “It’s only one extra day of coffee consumption..I will not have any more for the week. I won’t have any at all the next day or the following day until next week.” Then guess what happens? I tell myself the exact same thing the very next day. It is much easier for me when I am going cold turkey. But I cannot even bear the thought of NEVER having coffee.
Fast forward 15+ years later and here we are. I still can’t seem to start the day without coffee. Depending on my mood, I find myself stopping by the local Mcdonalds, Starbucks, Coffee Bean, or gas station to get my daily fix for the drive before heading out to work. The biggest problem I have with coffee is that since caffeine is a diuretic, it makes me pee a lot. Caffeine and alcohol have this effect on me. If I don’t have either all day, I pee like a normal person. This is really inconvenient for long drives, but my addiction is such a lost cause that I’d rather drink coffee and just deal with the excessive peeing.
At home, I usually sip on Maxim coffee. I get a box from the Korean market for about $15 (100 packs in a box). I don’t really brew coffee at home. The coffee packs are much more convenient since all I need is hot water to add the mix in.
During the three months when I kicked the habit, I think I was having the best sleep I’ve had in ages. Since I wasn’t feeling that caffeine crash, I slept like a baby and woke up energized and refreshed. It was a wonderful feeling.
So in addition to my plans to working out and eating healthier, I also need to refrain from being a coffee junkie. I have been doing well on eating healthier. I still eat stuff I probably shouldn’t eat, here and there (cuz life would suck if I didn’t have my guilty pleasures), but I have been good for the most part. And as for working out, I am still working on getting myself to the gym. I think that probably won’t start until 2014 at the latest. Starting to go is the hard part. Once I start, it will become a regular routine.